i like the poem/book by Dr. Suess called 'oh the places you'll go', i love the vivid imagery he uses and the clever twists and turns. the curious people and breath-taking vistas.
its just i don't feel like i'm going to any of those places...
everywhere i turn, i see people going off to universities and big colleges and i'm reminded of just how badly i want to go and explore the world. to see what it's like for other cultures, peoples and economic statuses. i want to break out of the box that i've ALWAYS lived in that we call fresno and see the world. it seems like the easiest way of doing that, at the moment, is to go to college somewhere other than fresno.
my Grandmother came back from a cruise this past week. My heart sank a little more and more with each gorgeous picture that i saw. i couldn't help but think that i would never see those serene places for myself.
but, there is a difference between visiting and living. i can't shake the idea that i don't want to live in the US. i want to live somewhere quiet. somewhere green and blue. where people aren't tied down by corporations or the media. but places like that are few and far in between these days.
now, for all my aspirations to leave fresno, it's extremely hard to imagine leaving the people. the people that i have relationships with now are dear to me, and i don't want to loose them.
you see my predicament? to go? to stay? and if i stay, how long? what it comes to, is when to leave a place behind.
